Weeks 1 & 2

Wow. I never could have imagined everything I would feel and do during the 1st couple of weeks of being a mom. I am proud to say that my baby and I have survived these first days home! I wondered if that was going to be the case a few times. At times I knew I was about to die of exhaustion and frustration, and at times I was sure my baby was going to die because she made a weird cough or her cry sounded different. (you can see I have a lot to learn)

Feelings I have had these last 12 days:

• Overwhelming Joy- I have never been happier
• Pride- I have the coolest, prettiest, sweetest baby around!
• Fear- Shes choking, it looks like it hurts to poop, is she gaining weight 
• Confusion-Am I doing this right, is she OK, will she be a decent person 
• Happiness- just looking at her face and that little gas smile brings me to tears (joyful ones)
• Love- For my little girl, for my husband
• Panic- No, seriously why is she crying...we changed her, fed her, held her....is she just ticked? Does she have some unknown ailment?
• Exhaustion- Day 12 with an average of 3-4 hours of sleep a day. If you know me, you know how serious I am about sleeping. Plus, how many times does a baby need to eat and be changed?!?! A LOT. 

Things I have done these last few days:

• Cry- Oh boy, I have cried so much. Over bring happy, sad, sleepy, and scared. Just when I think I am back to normal it hits me again. That TV show played a song about loving your kids and now I am going to be weepy all day!
• Laugh- She is so funny with her faces and her bodily functions. Sometimes she looks like Mr. Magoo when she is eating. 
• Change Diapers- yuck.
• Feed baby- The most amazing thing. The most frustrating thing. Depends on her mood. Sometimes its peaceful and I get to admire how sweet my baby is, sometimes it's a fight because she is ticked it's not happening fast enough. There are flailing arms and creepy grunts that seem to say "give me what I want now lady!"
• Sit- not much else to do around your house 
• Shower- Have become my new best friend. Peace. Quiet. Fresh Smells. 
• Watch TV- I need to get a good book series. Maybe it's time to finally read The Lord of the Rings. I have always wanted to. Now I have countless hours to do so.
• Cry- Like I said...
• Smile- Sweet baby

Things Cora has done the last few days:

• Eat.
• Sleep.
• Poop.
• Stare at me (ahhh)
• Eat.
• Sleep.
• Poop.

I can't believe how much I love this little girl. I also love to see Brian so obsessed with her too. It's true what they say about how you will love your husband so much more after having a baby. I love to watch him kiss her and tell her how much he loves her.